How many of us are lucky enough to get second chances to live? Definitely not many times. I wasn't lucky in Love to get such a second chance (despite all efforts). But it was the greatest second chance and a force of miracle that I got this greatest gift of being alive even after a fatal fall. I am back to th normal schedule of life after exactly 15days in hospital and it feels like I am wiser by 30years now. On the edge of life and death the thoughts that ran in my head tremendously amazed me. Nothing mattered that moment..everything became so neutral, I just wanted to forgive and ask for forgiveness from everyone that I knowingly or unknowingly wronged or felt wronged. I was told we can experience the true nature of our mind on three occassions and I realized it's just filled with goodness basically.
When my friends or foes (which my fabricated mind perceived) visited me with all smiles and kindness I felt embarassed to have even reacted rudely the times they were rude with me.
Saying goes..it wasn't my time to be gone but it surely did made me realise nothing else matters
All those grudges and ill feelings for being betrayed, all the jealousy and desire to be praised, the feeling of arrogance to be better, more favoured , every concept of "I" boiled down to nothing.
At the near end or end ....even the concept of being good or bad didn't hold.
It's as if like I have taken a new birth and possibly my conduct with the outside world would be much less of I & Myself. It was such an ignorance to be having to win arguments, the jealousy and desire to be better than the other and all the mundane thoughts and aspirations..
I am glad I fell...I am glad the lord of Death denied my entry into his realm and most of all I am glad I have such wonderful people around me.
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